We live in the age of online social networking, where we share even the most mundane elements of our lives. Not much is kept secret from our peers. But it is still deemed inappropriate to discuss your health problems online for the world to see.
I didn’t start with the intention of sharing my innermost secret health issues. In fact, I didn’t really know which direction I wanted to go in.
I had previously shared information and news articles about endometriosis on a Facebook group. I didn’t talk about my problems on Facebook. I wanted to continue spreading the word about this little-known disease, so I searched for a new outlet.
I started a general blog, adding things then deleting them. For some time, I didn’t know what I wanted to write about, and I found it difficult opening up and sharing anything to the unknown.
In 2018, a focused blog, Endometriosis.live, was created as a place where I could continue sharing information about endometriosis and my story.
I had come to a standstill with my health. I had been in and out of hospital for 6 months . I had completely stopped working by this point, and the pain was back full force. I was disheartened and lost — I hadn’t considered the treatment didn’t work.
I didn’t write very often back then, but when my endometriosis flared up late in 2018, I embraced the blog and started using it as a source of therapy. What I wanted was to find someone who understood what I was experiencing. I felt so alone in my struggles.
I wanted to show the world what it was like to live with endometriosis, what it actually meant to have it there every day, and to cope with the emotions of it as well as the physical symptoms. My friends knew I had endometriosis, but I didn’t really talk about what it was doing to my body. Writing gave me that opportunity.
My symptoms worsened as the disease spread over the years, and yet people still didn’t know what endometriosis was. Some had never heard of it before. I felt people needed to know about endometriosis because I certainly wasn’t the only person in the world going through this.
As I gained confidence in my writing, the blog became almost no holds barred. Over time, I’ve spoken about everything from painful sex to constip , from incotinence to fertility counselling and treatments, and everything in between. I quickly passed the point of embarrassment and sharing became much easier. I was tired of living in so much pain and keeping quiet.
My goal became clear. I wanted to shout about endometriosis from the rooftops, as loud as I could for as many people as possible to hear. If I could just get people to read the word “endometriosis,” they might retain some recollection of it. They might question what it is or go off and search for answers themselves. Maybe someone would read it who was suffering from the same problems but wasn’t diagnosed, not knowing there was an answer for what caused their pain.
My blog became not only a place for me to seek help but also for others to gain informatiob on endometriosis and support for what they were experiencing. I’ve spoken to young girls who didn’t know what was happening with their bodies, or who were newly diagnosed. It reminded me of how scared I was when I was diagnosed back in 1998 when I was only 25 Some girls were only in their early teens and experiencing that same fear alongside all the other difficulties of normal teenage life.
Along the way, I found I was supporting other women without knowing it — women who were just as lost as me, and who, in turn, supported me. It gave me perspective when I discovered women who were in a much worse position than I am.
I have become somewhat determined not to keep my health problems hidden purely for the comfort of others. I discovered that sharing this information helped others. It empowered other women to start speaking out about their problems and to start writing them down for the world to see. One of my big hopes has always been that others will see what I, among so many other wonderful endo sisters, write and that they will do the same.
There is a disease out there in the big, wide world called endometriosis. It affects millions of women across the globe. We need your realization, understanding, and support. But we will never progress in raising awareness if we don’t speak out ourselves.